Tuesday, December 16, 2008

My Thought, process today

I FEEL LIKE I HAVE SOMETHING TAKING AWAY MY LIFE. LIKE I'M NOT EVEN ME ANYMORE. YESTERDAY I WAS NOTHING AND TODAY I FIGURED I'M FAKE. REAL LOVE, BUT REAL FAKE. HERE I AM LAUGHING AND SMILING AS IF EVERYTHING'S OKAY. WHEN I'M BURNING INSIDE, TILL THERE'S NOTHING LEFT.
UGLY PIECES BURNS TO NOTHING LEFT. I HAVE NOTHING AND IS NOTHING
MY GIRLFRIEND CALLED ME SELFISH YESTERDAY. AND EVEN NOW SAYING OR THINKING ABOUT WHAT SHE SAID KILLS ME. EVEN THOUGH I'M ALREADY DEAD. AND FEELS NOTHING. SHE'S WORNG AND RIGHT AT WHAT SHE SAID. AND EVEN THOUGH SHE SAID "SORRY" AND FORGET ABOUT WHAT HAPPENED. BUT I CAN'T!!
[its killing me slowly and softly]
AND THAN I GO BACK TO BEING NOTHING WHICH HURTS THE MOST

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